Leaving the girls behind isn't easy. Maddie didn't seem to catch on as I dropped her off at Oma's. Julie cried this morning before leaving for school. Nikki cried at school in the hallway - she'd been fighting it up until then, and couldn't hold it in any more. Today I feel sad that I have to leave them. There's a lump in my throat the size of Texas. I know it will be good to go, and they'll survive, but it's gonna be hard. And lonely. I miss them already.